hope

the dreaded delayed 2nd post... well, it was muddied with presidential excitement and all, plus i had a hot domestic date with mike tonight, which included trips to varied retailers in an effort to whip our home into shape and mushroom swiss burgers from the local max and erma's. so much for watching the food intake, eh?

tomorrow, i plan to get up when my body lets me, then participating in two things: yoga on cable, [which i've been doing lately for free, in private, in my living room and i love it], and continuing my quest to learn to run by hitting the treadmill again at my gym/rec center. i secretly hate the treadmill, as i feel like other people at the center scowl at me when i'm on it, but one of these days i will be fast enough on it that other people there won't be annoyed with the fact that i'm using it. maybe it's all in my head, but still...

after that, i will eat lunch, pay bills and try to get a full itemization of what remains on my identity theft business as far as debt goes. i am then trying a new approach to this thing. my sister used to work in collections, so she knows how to work the system, as it were, since she's used to talking to people like me. she told me that i could give her permission to speak on my behalf, and we would try to get some of these debts that belong to other people down, so eventually i could just pay them off [yes, even though they aren't mine for the most part] and call it a day. i want to be debt free as soon as possible, so the lower i can get these numbers, the better off i'll be. see, the thing i've found is that when you just pay someone else's debt attached to your social security number, the debt goes away much faster than when you fight it. sad, yes, but also true. god bless america.

mike and i have zero plans for the weekend that don't involve me working, which also sucks. i work nights for the next two nights, and i'm off sunday, but monday i work a double. so much for the weekend. i'm supposedly getting a call soon about a possible job. every day i wait for it. every day it doesn't come. still, i hold on with hope that the call will come, i can quit working nights and have a normal job with a normal schedule and a paycheck that beats starbucks so i can pay things off quicker. oh, and i'd also love to see the men in my life more. mike and i DO have plans, however, to go visit his cousin at the family bindery next week, because as it turns out, they have a bit of letterpress equipment there. fancy that. we're taking the day off next friday and touring the place, and i'm really excited about it.

till then... it's time to sleep. sometimes nights when i don't work are just as tiring as the ones that i do. what's that about?